Good afternoon my lovely people, I just got home and I've decided to blog.......?
Well, it has been a really hectic month(s) for me. Practically for the past few months, almost everyday I'm feeling really miserable.
I'm NOT the kind of person who will cry easily / show out my emotions when I'm feeling really down.
But, on the 11 of September 2012, my dearest Grandpa aka Ah Gong (that's what I always called him) passed away. It's been really hard on him to always stay at the hospital alone, trying to stay strong. Of course my family will go down everyday to accompany him & stay by him.
He has indeed been a wonderful Ah Gong for the past 15years. He took care of us (my cousins and I) ever since we were born. We always told him not to think so much due to his sickness but he would always smile & tell us that he didn't, it's obvious enough that he didn't want us to worry so much. Before he passed away, he told all of us that he didn't have any regrets, because each and everyone in the family loved him wholeheartedly. We took care of him without any complains despite on how tired we are. The only thing that worry him was my beloved Grandma aka Popo (that's how I called her as well).
After my Ah Gong's death, sist & I moved down to my Popo's house to accompany her because we were worried of her staying alone. She was also happy that sist & I were coming over because ever since we were young, she really adored us the MOST.
And that was exactly the period when I'm having my exams. It's really tough, I swear. Being really sad due to my AhGong's death is a thing, and having to handle exams? I really have high expectations for every exam that I'm taking, and I want to do well. I want to make my family proud, I want my Ahgong to know that he have a smart Granddaughter that has a bright future ahead of her.
But as much as I'm really sad, I know my Daddy is even more sad I guess. And worst, my Grandma..
Everyday I'm really living in fear, I'm really afraid of losing her. She has been a wonderful Grandma too. And so........ my nightmare has really came true. She passed away on the 5 of November 2011.
God's really unfair. Why must they take away both of my precious loved ones away from me..?
YES.... Featuring the most awesome Grandparents ever :-) :
I really would like to thank them for taking care of me and my sist ever since we were born. They adored us like we were they're children. They cooked for us, and when it's on my birthday, they would come all the way to my house and give me money. WHUTTTTT, two oldies taking train all the way down just to say a Happy Birthday and give me money ?! I swear every birthday I was so fuckin touched. I'm really blessed to have such a Grandparents, and I truly thank god for that.
I FUCKIN MISS THEM SO MUCH. I hope they're doing well in another world..
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Before my Grandpa's death, my Hammy have just passed away as well. It was so fuckin awful because sist & I weren't at home at that period.
And when my Mum called me and told me that my hamster have passed away, I swear I was fucked.
Oh lord, look at her, such a cutiepie. I hope she's doing well, because I can't take care of her anymore. Miss her damn much as well.
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As you can see, this blog post is all about what has happened to my life lately. And yeah man, IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY ON THE 31st OCTOBER 2012.
My lovely girlfriends planned a surprise for me !!!!!!!!! I was happy to bits, and they're really sweet. We celebrated a week earlier before my birthday because Qianru's leaving before my birthday :-(
KBOX with girlfriends was a blast, went to Haunted House, but it wasn't even scary. WTFUCK? I wonder if it's even a Haunted House to be honest. Went to Acid Bar in the night to get all hyper and crazy !!!
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The day before my birthday, Mummy bought for me a dress which I really love alot ! And it's BLACK :-) I love black dresses !!
I wanted to celebrate my birthday over as East Coast Park, and had my birthday dinner over at Jumbo in the night. But, Daddy came across this beautiful place known as The American Diner, and I always love Western food. So we decided to celebrate there instead !!!!
The workers there sang me a birthday song and gave me a free Oreo Cheesecake with IceCream, they were really nice :-)
Sissy & I get to decorate the table with crayons (pretty much like a kid).
Birthdays ? PRESENTS, thank you to those who gave me presents, I really appreciate each and every of your thought. Also, thank you to those who wished me. :-)
Argh damn, I really miss that day alot sigh :(
Told Mummy that I want to celebrate my birthday over as Sentosa next year, and she said that I was insane because I planned so far hahahaha.
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Back to the normal days, I've been out for almost everyday and I'm pretty guilty because firstly, I don't work, and yet I kept spending my parent's money. And to my surprise, they didn't want me to work as well. So yes, life's pretty awesome (not that awesome because I lost my beloved Grandparents)
Ehhhhh, I think I look pretty cool in the photo above with the cool cap and my swag pose. LOOOOL.
Oh and yes, I didn't dye my hair okay, so stop questioning me!!!!!
Love this picture with beloved Estelle because I think both of us look pretty and cute here !!!!
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19th November 2012, I swear it was the only day I got up so early at 5am. But damn it, quickly bathed and rush out to meet dearest partner at Bishan and trained to Woodlands and had Macs for breakfast.
I was so excited for the Up-North Tchoukball League, and I can proudly boast that I had improved on my shooting!!!!! And I was so so so so happy that day because even Coach said that I did well on that day, yay :-)
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| With the girls! |
Ended competition at 6pm, quickly changed and head to town with Partner. Had loads of fun with her too hehehehe.
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It has been half a year since I've last loved someone / gave someone my attention after my previous breakup.
Not to say it was a bad one, but it definitely improved myself as a person.
Recently, there's this guy who caught my attention. And I swear he didn't do ANYTHING. And I'm definitely not the kind of girl who will talk to guys unless if you're my good friend OR I'm interested in you.
How should I put it....... His eyes, are god damn beautiful. And I think, I'm in love.
Goodbye, xo.
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